How I Met Your Mother Finale: Happy Ending in my Point of View

After 9 wonderful seasons, with all its ups and downs, I believe that the finale is very well written by Craig Thomas & Carter Bays. HIMYM reflects what life is all about. There is true love, hopes, dreams. However, in life there are also dissapointments, failures, loss.



Maybe Tracy (the Mother of Ted’s children) has to die young because she also wants to meet the love of her life before Ted. so in the end everybody is happy: Lily and Marshall happy as a married couple until they’re old, Robin got her dream job and life adventure, Ted has kids and having the chance to love both Tracy and Robin, Barney enjoys his legendary life and has the chance to feel true love to his daughter. Thank you HIMYM, I’m surely gonna miss you all!! 🙂



my first experience giving birth: Cheryl

my baby Cheryl is turning 5months old today 🙂

I promised myself to share my experience in giving birth but I haven’t got the time, until today I had a gtalk chat with my dear friend Kay, who is 8 month old pregnant. Its a great opportunity for me to share my story through my chat with her, so here it is…. (Thank you so much Kay :* )

I hope whoever reads this (who is pregnant, not pregnant, or whoever wants to get pregnant) could be inspired by my story. Just relax and enjoy the process of giving birth 🙂


I entered my 38th week of pregnancy,

my hubby had to go out of town (to Bandung) that weekend for work meeting.

he told our baby, please wait for me and dont start labor until i return 😀

i read from various sources in the internet that eating dates (kurma) could make labor easier

so i ate kurma diligently (sometimes lazy though :P).

my hubby got back that Tuesday,

and it turns out that tuesday was my last day of office.

wednesday morning when i woke up, there were a little spot of blood when i pee.

so i texted my boss, bu shanty, that I’m gonna skip work and go to the doctor.

i was curious about what actual contraction feels like,

i googled it and in they say its like menstrual cramping.

i haven’t felt that yet

but sometimes a little tension on my tummy

the doctor said i was ok and the baby might be born tomorrow

so that afternoon after the doctor visit, me and hubby went to sarinah mall (near our hospital) for a walk and lunch.

my hubby then went back to work after lunch, then i want to the mall with my mom and my sister.

(my sister was waiting for her day to leave to UK for masters)

we walk around kota casablanca mall until asar around 4pm

then we went home.

I only tried the pregnancy exercise twice in my hospital. However, I increased my frequency of walking. Not only I walk back and forth to the bathroom in the office 😛 I also take small walks at night with hubby before we go to bed. I don’t have time for morning walks (can only do it in the weekends), so having a night walk is also nice, its quiet and relaxing…

i hope u’re not bored Kayy 😛


Hihihihi..keep texting…gw baca kok…


so the red blood starting to come up even more

that night my hubby went home late, and i spent my night talking with my sis, we laughed and tell stories about everything,

remembered our childhood,

i was soooo relaxed 😀

my hubby got home at 10pm and we went to bed as usual,

at 12 o’clock midnight, it was a new day, thursday 5th of September 2013,

i started to feel tummy ache.

and it really feels like menstrual cramp.

we started to count the minutes between the cramp.

its so easy to differenciate when the cramp comes on and off 😀

its about 10 or sometimes 5 minutes,

i went to sleep everytime the cramp stops.

its like u’re sleeping

and ur alarm clock went on

you wake up coz it hurts

but then u set up the snooze button

the cramp stops and sleep again 😀


do u get it?

keeps going on and on


Iyaaa yaaa…ngerti ngerti



around 2am i cant stand it anymore,

the cramps get more aggresive 😛

hurts more

so my hubby decided we get ready to the hospital.

we left our home at 2.30 and we didnt tell anybody.

we dont wanna wake our parents coz it might not be the moment yet.

we only texted them to inform that we’re going to the hospital.

we got there at 3am


2.30 pagi kah?




Ahhhhh okokok


the cramps keep going on and on every 5minutes.

i lay in the bed and the nurse checked on my opening it was 3!

i tried to sleep,

with the snoozed alarm on and on 😛

they told me to sleep looking at the left side

coz it helps the baby to push easier.

it hurts more sleeping on the left side than the right,

so i thougt that it really works.

i kept thinking positive,

my baby is smart, she’s looking for her way out 😀

at 5.30 i felt a tummy ache quite different, i wanted to poop 😛

so i pooped.

the contraction keep coming on and off while i poop and clean my but 😛



i laughed at the bathroom

it just felt funny!!

then at 6am my doctor came (he was doing an operation with another patient)

he checked my opening,

entered his hand inside hahaha.

it hurts, but i’m still fine with it coz its for our own good

he said ur progress is doing well.


I dont like tht part


its 6-7 cm opening

knowing that he said i’m progressing well.

it makes me so positive and happy.

i read in blogs that they spend lots of time waiting for opening,

like a whole day,

thank God i got a chance to have progress faster, without any medical interventions.

so i moved to the delivery room,

my hubby was always beside me 😀

then at 7 my mom came!

she was on her way to the office with my dad,

they turn on their handphone on their way to the ofiice.

they realize my text when they got in the ofiice and went straight away to my hospital.

my mom help me eat breakfast,

it was the hospital’s porridge.

and i drank hot sweet tea so that i have the energy to give birth.

it was 5minutes to 8 am and they checked me again itu was 8cm.

i thought i was gonna give birth around 8.30 but it didnt happen yet!!

the contractions keeps getting stronger.

i learned from my pregnancy exercise instructor to keep calm and dont scream.

it really helps.

i wanna save my energy,

i didnt scream at all!!

i just breath,

i didnt talk any swear words like the other woman i know in the blogs.

keep breathing,

everytime i blow out my breathing when it hurts,

so instead of screaming “arrrhggghh”

i went like “huuuuuuuhhhhhfffff”


did u get it?



Jelas jelas.. hihihihi no screaming and swearinh


the clock hanging in front of me shows 8.30 and still i’m going on and off with contractions.

mayb 9 o’clock, i thought so optimistic in my mind,

come on baby 9 o’clock, i said to my baby 😀

at 9 my doctor checked again and he said it was 9cm

almost there!

he said he’s gonna break my waters.

he brought like this big nail

or bottle opener cork to open bear





i held tight to my hubby and my mom.

i dont feel scared at all.

i felt like,

i’m gonna make through this


Ooo like the screw to open wine yaaa



i’m not gonna chicken out, in my mind i keep saying this.

then all of a sudden waters came out and wet.

it was like hot warm water spilled out,

contractions keep going on and off

the nurses gather around my doctor.

everytime contraction starts, i was told to push.

i pushed like dozens of time but it was stil not happening


my hubby keep reminding me not to close my eyes while pushing coz its dangerous for my eyes.

i said in my mind

hai baby, i cant wait to cu

i know u’re on ur way

everytime i push, u’re getting closer and closer

i dont care how much i have to push

how tired i am to push to see you!!

i dont care, i’ll just keep pushing to cu 😀

my hubby said its close!

the doc said he could see my baby’s head and hair!

Then I heard her cry!




it was actually the last push!

thank GOd

they put my baby girl colored pale grey

on my chest

it was incredible!

i asked myself

whats this living thing here

its like a mouse!!

hahahah 😀


Alhamdulillah lancar ya daaan


rike r u stil with me!!






ok back to the baby like a mouse 😀




wait, i still gotta push my placenta out

so yeah after i pushed it out (the baby still on my chest)

the doctor put on the stitches

i dont care how much stiches i get


it really hurts!!




especiall when it reach my butt





but stiches hurt the 2nd,

the part that hurts the most is the contractions

hahaha of course but i dont bother to ask or talk anything to my doctor

i just said “ouch”




no further talking to keep me calm and steady

i guess the key to my self control is that i dont wanna give a shit


then the nurse held my baby help her find my nipple

then just a couple of seconds atached to my nipple she took my baby

so i guess no breastfeeding experience yet

coz they gotta clean my baby and get prepared for other operations

for other mothers besides my room

my hybby watched my baby cleaned and weighted

come to think of it, my baby was waiting for my mother in law to come!!

to see her born wkwkwkw

coz my baby was born right when my mother in law came in the room

the doctor put me on a very2 large diaper 😀

then i relaxed there for a while

my mother in law gave me massages




i had back ache maybe bcoz of pushing lots of time

then after my baby was cleaned, the nurse let me see her again, already wearing pink hat and blanket

that moment was so touching

she had very red lips

and very fair skin

oh my God, thank God i gave birht to a very pretty baby

she looks just like my hubby


my sister told me

during my baby was in the baby room

all the other babies was sleeping with eyes closed

my baby who just entered the world a couple of minutes ago had eyes wide opened!!!

she was even looking around.

her eyes was looking around as if she’s happy seeing the world

she cant stay still!!

thank Goddd

i kept in bed that whole day until 4pm the nurse help me stand up, help me walk to the bathroom, pee and take a bath.


Touching daaan touching


thank you rikeee


i hope my story gives u more courage




u’re gonna face it with confidence and calm

promise me?? 🙂


It isss




u have to eat luch now

i gotta go pump my breast 😛

talk later kay

thanks for listening :*

lov u kaayyy :* be brave ❤


Thank you for shariiing daaan


i’m gonna put u in my blog 😀 thanks to u too



Happpy pumping yaaa

So thats about it… happy 5 month old my baby, Cheryl :*

here is a picture of her on her birth day 🙂

my Cheryl <3

my Cheryl ❤

we are not what you think we are!!

wow, many things i’ve been through and its not easy…
still trying to hold on, to live the dreams 🙂

anyway, yesterday my love and I had a little kareoke session using our laptop,
it was fun 😀

but thats not the point i’m sharing it out here haha 😀

we just realized that Mika’s song is a masterpice!! well, actually most of his songs are so cool,
but this one song turns to be our favourite: “WE ARE GOLD”

here is a short clip of the lyrics…

Teenage dreams in a teenage circus
Running around like a clown on purpose
Who gives a damn about the family you come from?
No giving up when you’re young and you want some

Running around again
(Running around again)
Running for money

Waking up in the midday sun
What’s to live for?
You could see what I’ve done
Staring at emotion
In the light of day
I was running from the things that you’d say

We are not what you think we are
We are golden, we are golden.
(We are not what you think we are
We are golden, we are golden)

I was a boy at an open door
Why you staring
Do you still think that you know?
Looking for treasure
In the things that you threw
Like a magpie
I live for glitter, not you


Now I’m sitting alone
I’m finally looking around
Left here on my own
I’m gonna hurt myself
Maybe losing my mind
I’m still wondering why
Had to let the world let it bleed me dry

We are not what you think we are
We are not what you think we are
We are not what you think we are
We are golden, we are golden!!

so, whats so good about this song??
well, i just realize that its true.

we dont realize what we really really wanted in life,

we realize them when other people are opposed to it,

or questioning our ability to reach it,
under-estimate us, or in other words,

we realize when other people challenged us!!

and if we really really wanted to reach our dreams, we shouldn’t give up!!

we should prove them wrong!!

the dream package

*my dream: living the American dream*

so listen to this song if you feel like giving up, and get back on track to reach ur dreams 😀

No giving up when you’re young and you want some

We are not what you think we are, We are golden!!

thanks a lot, Mika 🙂


I watched Mario Teguh’s show that night, February 13th 2011. the topic was “Jodoh di Tangan Siapa??” (it means: Who decides our love destiny a.k.a Soulmate)

Well, in the end of the show, he summerized it up like this:

A perfect person is possible to find. However, they’re all already in relationships of their own (not single anymore), for example who is handsome, pretty, honest, patience, rich, smart, has a steady job, etc. They all became perfect because their partner made them perfect. So its up to you to choose an imperfect person and make them perfect.

Once you are in a relationship/ marriage, both of you become a better person because of your partner. You love each other and you grow old together, you become a better person each day. In my religion, God will give someone a lot more income/earning (rejeki) when that person gets married, because it unites two different person, two different lives, two different families, two seperated income which become one. Marriage brings a lot more to the both of them.

Therefore, Mr. Mario stated that we have to prepare ourselves to be the best for our soulmate. Whether you have met him/her or not, you must get prepared. Whether you have known him/her or not, keep on upgrading yourself.  Once you have the relationship and unite in marrige, you still have to upgrade yourself, keep loving them and give them the best of yourself 🙂

Dont expect your soulmate to give you happiness in life, but give them the best of you for their happiness, and automatically happiness will come to you as well 🙂

This guy I have been with for 2years. We last met on Thursday and didn’t communicate since (by phone/messages) because he was concentrating on his important assignment. That morning, 7.40am Monday, February 14th 2011. I accidentally met him at campus.

Snap… we looked at each other and both surprised… both in silence.

My heart was beating fast.

I guess this is it. I really missed him at that time, and it felt like we first met.

I hope he really is the one. The guy with Penguin philosophy (the most faithful animal on earth).

Dear God, please let us be.


D & D 🙂

wish i were Taylor Swift

I honestly wish I were Taylor Swift.

Well, if I were a young-pretty-American-girl, i would definitely want to become a country singer :p

I’d love to sing and write my own country songs, especially songs that were about my life, young girl’s ordinary life, school, boys, etc.

The fact that I’m not Taylor Swift, kept me wishing that I were her. She is a girl who knows what she wants to do in life, knows her dreams and work hard to make them come true. And I’m just the opposite of that.

Maybe I do know where my life is bringing me. with this education i’m having now, I could be a lecturer or a minister for my country. I got this perfect guy & we’re gonna start our own family. However, sometimes i get confused and act as if I dont know where I’m heading. I get scared, is this really what I’m good at? Is this really what I wanted.

Perhaps maybe I have the tendency to make my life difficult. I tend to make myself stressed in things I shouldn’t be. But actually, in doubtful moments like this is the time I reassure myself.

I probably get scared to fail in what I’m doing now, because yes, maybe this is what I really wanted. I want it so bad that I dont want to screw it up. I’m getting there somehow, I really am. It seems like a long road and I still got many hard work to do to get there, but yes I’m on my way.

Its like Taylor Swift’s song “Mine”, especially this part of the lyrics:

“The moment I can see it
Yes, yes,
I can see it now”

Sometimes it takes some time for us to realize it. And it usually comes in times we are down or want to give up. All I needed was to cry my heart out for a night, a good listener, someone to remind me how simple my plan was and how I could actually reach my dreams.

I thank that person so much. I hope you could be patient with me, coz I’m hard to deal sometimes. Your love is everything to me, I can’t wait to live with you and I hope I could always make you happy.

“we’ve got bills to pay,
We got nothing figured out
When it was hard to take yes, yes
This is what I thought about”

me and chilly :)


*and thanks to Taylor Swift 🙂

I hope this isn’t a wrong prayer

Dear God,

if what I got now isn’t what I wanted,

please shut my mouth up from complaining,

Dear God,

please open my heart to be thankful and greatful,

give me strength to keep doing and loving what I have now,

and help me to continue fulfil my dreams…

one more thing,

please don’t seperate me with the one I love,

I believe that he is the one, my present and my future,


Bandung, december 3rd 2010

Thank You Very Much

It is a common knowledge that saying ‘thank you’ is important. However, some people just seem to ignore it. Perhaps they forget, or they just feel that it is not worth to say it. It is such a shame because saying your gratitude is not just a virtue. It is not just a word to show your appreciation. There is much more advantage behind it, not only for the person who is being helped but also for the person who helped out.


First of all, gratitude is a fundamental thing that keeps the two persons connected with each other. Have you ever wondered why in the world would someone help you when you are having difficulties? Why would they even bother to spend their time on your problems even when it doesn’t give them anything in return? It is because they feel that they have a bond with you. Not just friends or family, it could be any bond, for example because the both of you are having a same background, in the same situation, or just simply because you are both human beings who couldn’t live on their own. They have a good intention. Saying your gratitude is a way to keep that bond intact. So the next time you have other problems, they would be pleased to help you out again.


When a helping is done with something in return, for example you pay the person to help you, it doesn’t mean that you saying your gratitude is unnecessary. Money is just one of the physical parts that hold the bond. In it still needs the basic human interaction, where every person wants affection. Gratitude is a universal form of affection that everybody could feel. With it makes the bond even stronger. Keeping the bond strong will make the person who is helping realize that he is needed and important. That way there will be a guarantee that he will always be there for you when you needed them.


Another case is when the helping is an obligation. A simple example is between a parent and their children. It is a parent’s obligation to take good care of their children, feed them, give them shelter and education. When the children give their gratitude by saying ‘thank you’, it will give a great impact back to their parents. They will feel that their obligations to fulfill the children’s needs are not a burden. Of course a great parent doesn’t feel it as a burden because they do it based on the love they have for their children. But what is so wrong with saying your gratitude to your parents to make them feel happy having you as their son, compared to all their effort to complete your needs.


It is just like nature’s law. When you give a force, it will return the same amount of force back at you. The force in the action equals to the force in reaction. Saying your gratitude is that reaction that keeps the force in balance, by strengthening and keeping the bond in each people’s social life. No matter how small their help is. Please don’t make other people upset with you or unhappy with you by forgetting to say your gratitude!!!